From time to time I prefer to look again into the previous and take into consideration what we was once. We had a lot again then and it was lovely. It’s nonetheless lovely however now it’s a practical, edited model. Perhaps the universe knew that we’d by no means be capable of thrive collectively, to turn out to be one thing fantastic. Perhaps we weren’t meant to be collectively.
Perhaps we have been presupposed to however we screwed it up for ourselves.
I suppose we’ll by no means know.
Typically I’m wondering in the event you meant every thing you ever stated to me. No, who am I kidding, you probably did imply every thing. In the meanwhile. Phrases can final perpetually however I suppose the intentions don’t. It’s so humorous how it doesn’t matter what, we’re nonetheless tied collectively by every thing we’ve been by way of but we’re so far-off. The identical phrases are actually simply bittersweet reminders that we’ll at all times have one another however not the way in which we used to.
Do you ever lie awake at evening desirous about this?
The place all of it went improper: when that lovely blazing flame between us became lethal fireplace that killed every thing we may have been. The identical fireplace we stored going for therefore lengthy and by no means realized that it was burning and destroying every thing. Now all that’s left is the searing ache from the injury we precipitated.
How did we come to this?
Was it your fault or mine? Have been we too younger and dumb to comprehend that we may have been magic? We may have nurtured that fireside into one thing so pure and superb. The sort of fireplace that will roast our marshmallows and heat our hearts. For a second, it was us towards the world. We may have stored that second going and I simply know that we’d be capable of tackle the world and every thing it may throw at us.
Have been you too enthusiastic about what was on the market or was I too timid to interrupt out of my very own shell? Have been you afraid or was I all in too early? Did you make the error of shutting your self off or did I make the error of being open with you? Or possibly, we have been too consumed with fixing one another and ended up seeing our each flaw. Perhaps that’s what tore us aside.
Perhaps we have been each screwed up or possibly it was all simply unhealthy luck.
I’ll say this as soon as: nothing on this planet may change what we had. I’ve seemed in all places to start out the identical spark, the identical roaring fireplace we precipitated. Perhaps if I discover it with another person I’d study from this and never let it destroy every thing. Or possibly that will be a shot at nighttime.
What if it wasn’t me otherwise you?
What if it was the timing? What if we weren’t supposed to fulfill again then and we compelled it? Is that this how destiny will get payback? Perhaps that is the reply. We’ve modified lots since we met. We grew up, we noticed life for what it’s, and we discovered a world the place it wasn’t simply one another. Had we met now we’d have skipped the tears, the yelling and fights, the encounters with demise and all of the lies we advised one another and ourselves. The world would don’t have anything on us.
Everybody noticed what we have been, what we gave off, and all of the magic in between.
We by no means did.