Is it bizarre that I really feel like I’ve recognized you my entire life, however in ratio to my existence up to now, you’ve solely been there for a second and it’s all already over?
I knew that the toughest factor I’d ever undergo was strolling away nonetheless wanting and loving you, and but I nonetheless did it. I don’t remorse loving you, and I don’t remorse exhibiting the authenticity that lies on the floor and beneath my pores and skin. I don’t remorse the late evening calls speaking about our points and in regards to the astronomical and atheist reasonings of life. However simply because issues ended, why does our friendship have to vary? It doesn’t imply I don’t need to be round you. I need you to take your time to develop, however can I develop up subsequent to you? Why do we’ve got to be strangers?
Love has no time restrict and no time stamp, however why am I nonetheless attempting to determine whether or not or not I liked you too shortly? They are saying that what’s actual isn’t excellent, and also you’re essentially the most actual, imperfect individual I do know. Ideally, I need us to proceed to be pals. I need to proceed to level out each time your voice cracks whenever you’re whispering on the cellphone to me so that you don’t get caught speaking too loud at three o’clock within the morning. I do know realistically that you simply and I’ll by no means occur once more, that I received’t have 2 a.m. conversations with you and I received’t hear you snort at our inside jokes.
Why was it over so quickly? How was it over so quickly? I’m holding again on holding you as a result of I’m afraid. I’ve doubts. Maintain my coronary heart or deny it, it’s yours to determine, however am I doubting you or am I doubting my capability to hold on being the individual you need me to be? I do know you’re attempting to neglect and depart, however I’m nonetheless sitting right here excited about being in your presence. I’m nonetheless excited about whether or not I might have carried out kind of or if I might have spoken to you earlier earlier than issues ended.
Our relationship might have come to a cease, however I nonetheless meant the whole lot I mentioned to you. I believed in us, however then why are we the place we are actually?