For such a very long time, I didn’t know what I did mistaken. I knew that our friendship had come to an abrupt halt but it surely wasn’t the primary time this has occurred. You used to run away on a regular basis, you’d say horrible issues about me after we have been in these phases of not being associates. I by no means had any concern taking you again, even treating you want household.
I did my greatest to just be sure you have been okay on a regular basis. I sacrificed friendships, strained relationships with members of the family, and didn’t hearken to anybody about you. I’d be the one to apologize to you, although. I’d attempt to make our friendship again to what it was earlier than, and you’d come again. I quickly realized you’d solely come again when it’s handy, although.
I’ve heard about a few of the issues it’s important to say about me now, although. I’ve heard in regards to the phrases you set in my mouth, the belongings you declare I’ve accomplished, and the way horrible I supposedly handled you. This time, I’m not apologizing, and it’s okay for those who don’t forgive me.
You don’t must forgive me, as a result of this time, I’m not sorry.
I don’t want your forgiveness, you dug your personal grave, and also you get to lie in it. Not solely do I not want your forgiveness this time round, however I additionally don’t need it. I don’t need forgiveness from somebody with such a darkish coronary heart. I used to consider there was good in everybody, however you, you make me query it.
You set all the things on a damaged previous, claiming the world has crushed you down and damaged you. The reality is you’re a perpetual sufferer. You’re keen on being the sufferer in each story you inform, in some way everybody in your life has wronged you. I really feel dangerous for the present individuals in your life. I’ve watched you’re taking a number of shut associates and commerce them in for what’s perhaps just a bit bit higher.
When the choice wasn’t higher, you’d make the unique particular person assume they did one thing mistaken to you. Once they weren’t apologizing, you’d drag their identify for the mud. I see by means of you and know what kind of particular person you’re. You aren’t a very good particular person, and I discover it exhausting to consider there was ever truly any good in you.
Something you say, and something you do, you do for your self. You do it to assist your self, and I doubt you’ve ever cared about anybody however your self. The lies have at all times spewed out of your mouth. It’s reached some extent of just about being humorous. You make individuals really feel like they’re not ok, and I by no means thought I’d genuinely say this about somebody, however you’re the one which’s not ok.
I don’t care for those who don’t forgive me for penning this, as a result of I’m talking my reality. Perhaps there are some individuals in your life that you simply’re ok for, however they’re those which might be similar to you. They’re manipulative and solely care about themselves. In that case, I’d say that you simply deserve one another. You aren’t price my apology.
This time, I’m not crawling again with some apology for some unknown cause. I’m not going to say I’m sorry for one thing I don’t must apologize for. You by no means apologize in your wrongs, however in your eyes, you by no means see something you do as mistaken. You’re a wolf in sheep’s clothes, and it took me far too lengthy to see that.
I’d at all times apologize for in some way hurting you. For years I believed I used to be the one damaging you. I by no means appeared and realized you have been the one hurting me, and everybody round you. You didn’t care, although. You by no means cared, you solely cared about your self, and that’s all you’ll ever care about.
So, no. I gained’t apologize. Any apology I’ve given within the time since our friendship has damaged, you weren’t worthy of. It’s okay for those who don’t forgive me. The one particular person that should forgive me in regard to you and me, is me. I must forgive myself for ever placing up with the stream of your bullshit. It’s okay for those who don’t forgive me, as a result of I’ll forgive myself, and I’ll be higher than I ever was with you in my life.